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When I was a child I had a book that I got when I was in kindergarten. It tracked a number of things, recorded at each grade level. A few were, my height, my weight, who my best friend was, and my favorite color. But the all important question was, “What do you want to be when you grow up?”

The answer to that question changed over the years, as did my answers to most of the questions, but there was always a definite answer. That one thing that I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that I would achieve when I grew up. At 5 it was a veterinarian, at 8 a teacher, 12 a lawyer, and into college a pharmacist, and then an engineer. Despite the shifting sands of my career aspirations, I knew that when I grew up, my path would be intentional and with purpose.

I ask my children the same question often. “What do you want to be when you grow up?” The question is most often answered with, “I don’t know,” or “I’m too young.” These answer used to worry me. I was always so sure of what I wanted to be and guided my choices towards that career choice. How could my boys not have that same direction and drive? Now I wonder, does making decisions about the direction of your life at a young age cause you to limit your possibilities?

Today, I am none of those things that I hoped and dreamed about when I was young. I planned and focused so hard on the goals I set for myself, that I lost the joy of the journey. I am somewhere I never even thought about or considered, but this place is full of growth and possibility.

I create websites, and get to help wonderful clients build and establish a social presence to help their businesses grow. I have worked with churches, bee keepers, restaurants, lawyers and many other small businesses. Running my own company has given me the freedom to explore some of the things that I have always been passionate about like writing, photography and graphic design. I am learning new and exciting things every single day and the journey is more important then the destination.

What do I want to be when I grow up? I don’t know, I’m not quite done growing yet.